Monday, May 05, 2003

It seems like not everything can be good at the same time. I'm not quite sure why, but it's weird sometimes. For instance, Holly and I went out this weekend and it was fun, but she now has to re-evaluate whether she thinks this is from God or not. I understand her concern, and yes, I know god needs to bless this relationship, but still... I really like her and I just don't know what is going to happen now.

Perhaps it is selfishness and perhaps it is just my lack of faith in God to handle relationships, but still, I don't like that this is happening. I'm all for God to bless things, but you don't tell someone that you know that a relationship is from God and then all of a sudden state that you have to figure out whether it is or not. Granted, we just met a little over a week ago, but we were hitting it off.

Maybe I'm just complaining for no reason at all. I just know I like Holly a lot and that I want it to work out. I know I want God to bless this as well, but I just really want God to say yes to this one. I trust in his judgment at any time... I just want this so bad.